i think i finally relised today why i'm so desperate to get grades so i can get to university. Because i'm SO desperate to be able to live in the same place for more than 4 days. This back and forth between my parents is ripping me to shreds. I will be absaloutly devastated if i don't get to go. The worse thing about it all is that my sister just started uni so i'm going back and forth all by myself. and it sucks to no end. its just extra stress i don't need. and i'm fed up but i dont want to hurt either of my parents by not going to theirs for equal amounts but i wish they'd consider me for once.