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my horoscope.

it's been far to long blogger, i reliase no one really reads this, but it nice to get my words out, the ones who have been spinning around my head anoying me and not letting me get on with anything else.
So i've just finished my first half term of 6th form, safe to say my dreams of a super-cool-laid-back version of school was blown out th window as soon as i walked into my very first class. Each and every teacher trying to scare you out of their class, none of us really had a chance to begin with. A few weeks into the academic year, i had an angry art teacher on my back saying i wasn't "taking her lesson seriously" after being rather offended by her comment, i've been trying extra hard, even though she has now ruined art for me and i plan to quit it at the end of year 12. Surely teachers are there to ENcourage not DIScourage? Who knows anymore, i certainly don't...
So that shook me up pretty bad, then a couple of weeks later, final starting to think "yeah things are going great" only to recieve a letter from biology informing me i got 2 'U's in my end of unit tests, not so good... How is it that i'm actually doing better in chemistry, the extreamly hard mathematical subject rather than fun old biology which i adore?!
I went into 6th form thinking i'd do an english lit and philosophy degree, but chnaged my mind after getting an A* in chemistry gcse then decided to do a biology degree, then it changed to biochemistry, now it's moved onto enviromental science with a year of studying abroad? oh my mind changes far too often...
finally, on top of all this, i have my mother who constantly brings up the fact i dont have a boyfriend (i swear parents dont want you to have one?)
anyway, that is all for tonight my non existant readers
au revoir!

i swear teachers are supposed to make you better at something, and encrouage you. not fucking tear you to pieces, embarress you, and make you feel like shit.
yeah thanks a lot i now feel so great.

Someone asks you to do something and you know you easily could but it's effort. So you sit in your room alone, listening to depressing music thats actually really good in a really sad way, pizza in the freezer and the house to yourself. Who needs to be social when you have that?

It really angers me that people crack jokes about 9/11 when it's just not something to laugh about.

SMILE

The smile upon my face is ridiculous, and the best thing is I'm smiling for no reason. I can't seem to wipe it off my face and i keep on giggling at the fact I'm smiling so hard. It really does feel lovely to feel this happy and once again for no reason!
It's actually true what they say, smiling makes you happy, not being happy makes you smile!
ahh man, and this is a song which is making me smile even more, so enjoyyyy: http://www.youtube.com/user/TravisRClark?feature=mhum#p/a/u/0/Ckd36qfxRYI

needed to get this off my chest.

I'm pissed off and annoyed at this stupid situation that i have been put in. A situation i have no control over. A situation which is forcing me to choose. How on earth is it fair that you decide to do this, and you both get along with your lives, you dont have to be pushed between two places. You get to carry on as normal. This situation has no affect on you, yet it's changed my whole life.
I don't understand how i'm stuck between two places. It's like i'm the only one who's being punnished and i haven't even done a thing wrong. I'm being punished for you two not being able to sort things out. No point in telling me lodes of people have to go through it, i didnt want this to happen, you made it happen and now i'm paying the price, thanks.
Also, i've been put in the role of the "messenger" as you two refuse communtication i'm delivering letters and asking your questions becuase you won't.
It's unfair that i dont have all my things with me, because i'm at one place and my stuff is at another. All your stuff is with you, yet mines being shipped around and pushed between the pair of you. On top of all that its my choice as to who's feelings i hurt.
i'm not angry at either of you, but i'm so angry/upset/annoyed at this situation because you're not going through it and i am.
cheers.




sorry, i just needed to vent.