oh just piss off seriously.
nice sly comments to try and make me feel worse about myself - that's what "friends" are for eh?
bitcheeees

Thoughts

Finding it really very difficult over the past few days to turn my thoughts off. There's just so many of them spinning round my little brain, constantly disracting me, and now is not the time for distractions.

I don't even know what i'm thinking/feeling any more -i just can't seem to make sense of them

;)

I'm actually feeling so good today. Don't get me wrong, i haven't been happy for the WHOLE day, the majority of it i've been feeling pretty content and just relaxed and happy with what i've got yanoo. It's been such a beautiful day, it started off looking a bit grey and gloomy but it soon lightened up and for the first time this yeah i felt a bit hot! Also, biology was a laugh as well, i know i should be concerned that our teacher just talks with us making funny comments and we're not exactly learning much... but today it just didn't really seem to matter. I was just kind of enjoying the moments and enjoying laughing rather than stressed and worked up about the exams which are fast approaching. Nice to have a break every now and then.
Although, as i've already mentioned, i haven't felt like this the whole day, i've had my moments, just as i always will. Letting all this work get on top of me and bog me down. Worrying about my lack of ideas for art. But it's ok, because i know i'll get an idea, i have faith in myself!! come on gen! Erm and then yeah just chilled out after my little stress session, watched the rest of a very potter sequel- which was brilliant, whoever invented that are true genius'!
and yeah finished the night off with some music and decided to clean my room whilst having a little bit of a dance to the music, it's ok, no one was watching and able to see my horrific dancing, but it's good fun and makes me feel happy! :D
anyway, just going to snuggle up into my bed and carry on reading my book : "the perks of being a wallflower" i highly recommend it!! xx

i find you extremely rude and very stuck up, i don't really have much interest in being your friend anymore.

I don't even know what to say anymore/

Quick update

hello once again, I really need to come back to blogger much more regually as i really do enjoy it.

So, what's been happening in my life recently? Well...

not a lot to be frank, which kind of sucks, i've always wanted to have a really fun life, in which i'd do so many cool things and just literally live for fun and experience. But recently i've been consumed by all my horrid school work, which i don't really have much intrest in yet i seem to be spending all my valuable time doing it. Doesn't make too much sense does it? And the really sad thing about it is that, if there wasn't so much pressure on me( some i put on myself, some by my family, some by my teacher, but mostly just because we're in a kind of world where you have to prove you're good enough, all the time) i would proberbly be much more happy. I'm trying to have a more positive outlook on life, being a pesmistic is really quite draining and I'm sure it's not the way to lead a good life.

So, seeing as it's the new year, i'm promising to have lots more fun and be less uptight, go on some adventures, laugh more, have a more easy breezy attitude.

xxxx

oh my

why why why why why why why why
would you cause such a stupid argument for no reason?
why why why why why why why why
my head feels like it will explode, i'm stupidly angry.