i swear teachers are supposed to make you better at something, and encrouage you. not fucking tear you to pieces, embarress you, and make you feel like shit.
yeah thanks a lot i now feel so great.

Someone asks you to do something and you know you easily could but it's effort. So you sit in your room alone, listening to depressing music thats actually really good in a really sad way, pizza in the freezer and the house to yourself. Who needs to be social when you have that?

It really angers me that people crack jokes about 9/11 when it's just not something to laugh about.

SMILE

The smile upon my face is ridiculous, and the best thing is I'm smiling for no reason. I can't seem to wipe it off my face and i keep on giggling at the fact I'm smiling so hard. It really does feel lovely to feel this happy and once again for no reason!
It's actually true what they say, smiling makes you happy, not being happy makes you smile!
ahh man, and this is a song which is making me smile even more, so enjoyyyy: http://www.youtube.com/user/TravisRClark?feature=mhum#p/a/u/0/Ckd36qfxRYI

needed to get this off my chest.

I'm pissed off and annoyed at this stupid situation that i have been put in. A situation i have no control over. A situation which is forcing me to choose. How on earth is it fair that you decide to do this, and you both get along with your lives, you dont have to be pushed between two places. You get to carry on as normal. This situation has no affect on you, yet it's changed my whole life.
I don't understand how i'm stuck between two places. It's like i'm the only one who's being punnished and i haven't even done a thing wrong. I'm being punished for you two not being able to sort things out. No point in telling me lodes of people have to go through it, i didnt want this to happen, you made it happen and now i'm paying the price, thanks.
Also, i've been put in the role of the "messenger" as you two refuse communtication i'm delivering letters and asking your questions becuase you won't.
It's unfair that i dont have all my things with me, because i'm at one place and my stuff is at another. All your stuff is with you, yet mines being shipped around and pushed between the pair of you. On top of all that its my choice as to who's feelings i hurt.
i'm not angry at either of you, but i'm so angry/upset/annoyed at this situation because you're not going through it and i am.
cheers.




sorry, i just needed to vent.

HI

I'M HAPPY.
OMG
!!!!
This is surprising for me, eh?
But nno! I am a happy gal, just I normally only blog when I'm angry/upset/WHATVER. But i'm happy. I've have such a 'chill' day, it's been so great. I stayed at my friends last night, 10 of us, I think i was the only sober one, but it's cool because i so much fun last night, so now I know I don't rely on mr.alcohol for fun! I can go back to sober gen, who has fun, but who does not do stupid things- THIS IS A GOOD THING, TRUST ME. Yeah, so last night was wickkkkkked, laughed so hard, who needs exercise when you can laugh like that?! ;')
Anyway, so the morning began with a darlic alarm clock going off "EXTERMINATE"- it wass err, an intressting way to wake up? aahah and then a few of us decided to wake the finall sleepers with some great dancing and terrible singing to "brimful of ashes", they absaloutly loved us afterwards :')
ahahah, yepp, so after I came home, me and my sister took wags for a walk down to the river and took some photos, which'll be lovely for my scrapbook :D
yay, and then i just sat outsid with wags for a while and just "CHILLED" in the sun. so good.
what can i say, i'm a girl who loves to chill!
I feel so relaxed, but I still haven't excepted that the school holidays have started for me?! 10 weeks of pure bliss, although i am so excited for next year :D
ahah ii'll stop babbling now, sorry i've just bored you with my activites, but i thought you might want to know that i'm not always mood and angry!
LOVE YOU, YOU LOVELY PEOPLEXXX

seriously?

I'm fed up and you are a bitch.
I'm shocked that you're doing this again.
See, I was dreading the next couple of weeks, but you've made it so much easier for me. I never really used to believe the whole "silver lineing" to everything, but now I think i've finally found it. Yes, it doesn't really make it better at all, it's still going to be the absaloute shittest thing ever, but you've made me just that tiny bit happy it's happening yannno?
so thank you, but i hope that one day you grow out of this